You are a ghost
Who sleeps beside me
A ghost of flesh and blood

You are a ghost of your past
Of my past
Of our past

But ghosts don't kiss me the way you do
Or make me laugh
Or wear clashing plaid

And in those moments we're alive again

I miss you
You aren't gone
And you were never here
But still you are missing
Held from me
A ghost

You are not mine
I cannot claim you
But please
Please
Can I borrow you?

I'm tired of being stuck
In the could have been
In the if it were
In the then it would be

They hook like leeches
Like parasites
Vampires
Feeding on the here and now
On the and it is
On the this is me

So I will poison my blood
With kisses
And warmth
And laughter
And You
Until the leeches fall away